bumbballgirl54's Journal

so things just seem to be getting worse and worse with ian...i kept thinking that if i could just give him a month or two things would get better. apparently not. he's completely in love with randi...and likes sally, too. but not me. i dunno. it sucks. and it's hard. b/c we can never be as close as we once were. gah i hate this so much. no one understands how i feel about him. how much i care. just...no one gets it. at all. they can't. i think i'm just gonna go out with john...b/c he's really awesome. and not all jealous. but he's honest and whatnot. and he's a sweetie. so it's all good. i feel bad about hurting joe...but i mean, kinda sketchy how obsessive he is and crap. i'm afraid he's gonna end up hurting me by being like his best friend dakota as soon as he gets the chance. and i am NOT ok with being used. so i dunno. i guess we'll just see what happens...gonna go to bed. finally.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: the one ~skye sweetnam

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